Don't be the Missing Drop

Hard days make us stronger.

I find myself feeling overworked and stressed out.  I think that may be because I have high expectations for myself.  I am in Unit Two at the Rolf Institute, which is an eight week course.  The first week was five days, and the remaining seven are only four, but it is run run run for nine hours a day.  I am also attempting to take online classes while I'm here (I was worried I'd be bored in April and May when I am back at home in NC).  I think I can handle all this work and stress, and to be honest, I'm cracking.

I am a homebody, and I miss my family, my pets, my friends, my roads, my campus, my life. I know my life right now is here and I'm living it fully, climbing multiple days a week and skiing at least one day on the weekends, but its nice to have some normalcy.  I've been here a month, and I still have a month left of classes (and an extra week before I can go home).

I'm so blessed to have this opportunity to be here while I'm still in college, I just never though that it would be so much work.

But, on the other hand... today was a beautiful day :)  We got a lot of snow the tail end of last week, and we got 2 or 3 more inches last night and snow fell all day (though it didn't stick).  It was beautiful have a blanket of white everywhere and to be able to see it falling as I looked outside.

As I was driving to school this morning a big fat flake landed on my windshield.  I could see the intricacies of this beautiful, delicate thing that causes so much anxiety and danger!  It was awe inspiring to see how such a small thing could affect so much. I tried to take a picture to no avail.

I find it humbling to look up at the mountains here and realize how small you really are.  I find it inspiring to look at such a small thing and realize that even that tiny flake can do so much, and many of these tiny flakes can create a beautiful landscape.  It kind of reminds of that quote by Mother Theresa

"We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop."

 Remember, what you are doing matters.  You may not feel like you are making a difference, or that you are getting anywhere, but even if you smile at one person today, and they smile back, you are making their ocean a little bigger.  We all don't have to move mountains, but we can all work together to see what we can do.

So, keep your chin up, persevere and start tomorrow as a new day, with new hopes and new challenges.  Let your heart open and experience the world.  Don't waste the day wishing you were something different or more.  Be you and love you.  You will thank you and so will those around you.  Anyone reading this is a part of my world and it is a little brighter knowing that I may have the chance to share what I learn.


Peace and Love