Solitude

I've always been a bit of a loner. I've never had a lot of friends, and I've never ever been popular.

When I came here to Boulder the first time I was shocked to learn what people thought of me.  I look at myself as a boring, quiet, wallflower, but the wonderful family I found here thought I was talented, amazing, and smart.

I guess its nice to get feedback like that sometimes.

So, I have always thought of myself as a loner and always wished that I had more friends.  I have tried to (and have) made tons of new friends, but I'm still not that person you call up to hang out with if you have a choice.

I always thought that that was a bad thing.

Everyone needs some time to themselves now and again to reflect on life and just take it easy.  The amount of time varies from person to person.  I need a lot of solitude.  It's not because I don't like people or anything negative, I just like to reflect and I like only having to worry about myself...

I'm glad that I realized this, because I don't want to be alone.  I want to meet someone special someday, and I want to have kids someday.  I either need to find a way to be ok with less solitude, or find someone that makes me want to spend time with them instead of being alone.

How much time do you need for yourself?  Do you make time for yourself? If not you really ought to, its good for you :)

"Some people find salvation in everyone, others only pain..." ~Be Yourself by Audioslave

Peace and Love